White butterfly...

I've been in a weird mood lately. Hopefully I will snap out of it. Every little thing has been making me upset, and usually I'm pretty decent at just brushing the small things off. I think I need to learn how to forgive. There are certain people in my life that I probably won't ever have a desire to reconcile with... and I think that in itself I have come to terms with. But, certain others I need to find it within myself to let the past and even the present go, and move on and forgive. It's something I struggle with. I'm always the first one saying, "There are more important things in life to worry about." All too often though I am the last one practicing that same idea. I've been realizing lately how much more I need to grow and mature as a person. I suppose that's a step in the right direction though. I need to grow up and chill out.

I was running out of gas today and I thank goodness I was because the following helped to make my day so much better. I pulled in to Circle K off of Rt. 8 and began to fill my tank up. A small white butterfly was flying around and I thought, "Oh, that's nice, I wish it would land on me." Well, it did. It hung out on my leg while I pumped the gas. For those of you who know me, you know my families connection with white butterflies, and how important something like this would mean to me. Then it flew to my car, and then to the pavement. It was the most calm butterfly I have ever seen.

Well, no. There was a blue one in Joshs' backyard that I got to feed before it died. Anyways... the white butterfly today was very special and made me realize that everything will be okay. I felt at ease, and more peaceful.

I took some pictures but none of them turned out very good.

It's events like todays that make me wonder, and make me wish everything made more sense to me. If I could make a real wish everyday of my life, it would be for clarity and to gain an understanding without having to go through all the confusion and questioning.

TheresaClare

p.s. I can't stop listening to Justin Nozuka.